ADHD and found out when old and I’m told to not work out the impossible

 I guess over 18 and always ask your doctor first but So so so so much to say a million words to say about finding out you have ADHD or dyslexia or any disorders on the spectrum. 

Umm obviously found out late in life and millions and millions of questions go on in my Brain on the what ifs 

Now I don’t hate my life but it’s been hard but it would of been boring if it wasn’t hard so like the brain just goes vrooom all those people who just conform or fit into the norm umm I look at them with there ice white walls and perfect goings on umm 

Kind of look at it and think love 💕 it or would o hate it crazy 😜 bananas totally 💯 bananas when your phyciatrists says lloyd if it’s impossible to work out don’t try to long or you will cook your noodles 🤪🤯

Like if ever I sit down and have a dream vroom obviously 🙄 I think back umm but you supposed to learn from your mistakes so to not try and work stuff out kind of umm gets messy doesn’t it , Coowee 

I am laughing my head of as I’m like nearly 50 and umm glad I’m an old person as any younger and me brain would pop . 

Umm the past the presence and the future 

Obviously 🙄 everyone likes to better them selves but umm do I like have a stop 🛑 watch on like 40 years of undiagnosed ADHD and dyslexia like have like a half hour session like twice a week on things and say right that’s two lots of periods I can work or think on the impossible things in life like mistakes or choice of women or jobs or bla bla bla see it’s amazing isn’t it .

Now only a person who had ADHD and was undiagnosed for a good period of three life would understand me I guess as a normal person would just make normal mistakes and not impulsive mistakes, 

Umm see how bananas things can go like super impulsive zoom through some traffic lights 🚦 on amber or hit the breaks on amber now everyone has slight amounts of mental disorders in them but it’s only the people that it effects therr life get sent to a phyciatrists and they are just a bit more qualified then a phycologist you get loads of people who write ✍️ books 📚 about ADHD but umm why did they how could they really understand if they didn’t have it umm tricky 

Yep how can you explain sex till you have had it type of thinking I am thinking obviously 

Tricky isn’t it obvious you have to have like a phyciatrists qualification really and they look at you and get there pen out and vroom , as everyone is unique diffrent,

Million dollar question 🙋‍♂️ is if I new I had ADHD and dyslexia at 6 years old umm and new what I know now 🙋‍♂️🤯🤷

And I’m told not to dwell on the impossible as it will cook me noodles lol umm I sorry but will wonder for ever and ever and ever more on 40 years of undiagnosed ADHD and dyslexia and other disorders 

It just blows my mind , these days children get picked up early don’t they in schools and in life but boom 🤯 I lived in the generation that was told your naughty and lazy umm it can change your whole life when you get told things like that when you just feel like you tried your hardest at somthing now ADahD there are special schools as obviously children with special needs learn differently there not stupid as all kids can learn it’s just the teacher 

But Coowee it just blows my mind those words lloyd don’t dwell on the impossible,

Busses trains plane I missed women dates drink drugs umm arrests I was arrested at 8 years old first time so Coowee it would wouldn’t it it would blow anyones mind the words don’t dwell on the impossible to work out lloyd 

Umm not to sure some times I feel sad some times I think wooo 🥳 I would of never of done that if I wasn’t ADHD and vroom spontaneously just vroom did things 

Split second decisions vroom I’m alive by the grace of GOD or his or her angels 👼 for some crazy reason and I’m told lloyd don’t dwell on the impossible questions that are impossible to work out , like you bet you my brain can go ten to the dozen on dreaming vroom 

Strange beautiful 😍 in a way like roll the dice country but ummm what is it like to be normal 9-5 pension holidays two a year bla bla bla the list is a long one for the normal person am I suppose to not think of the normal person is that impossible for me to work out ,

Mr Normal 

Bonkers isn’t it , do I want to be rich no, do I want to be happy all the time Umm no I don’t think I do of your not unhappy how can you know what happy is .

Umm so it’s the world of the impossible questions I’m not allowed 🚫 to think on it’s like yep a naughty ADHD child being told not allowed to and vroom but honestly I have a good phyciatrist so I do try to stick to his phrases he has given me over the years known him like 7-8 years I suppose and umm still alive still 

Forever ask my self have I done better or worse being diagnosed I suppose I’m not in prison lol and not on any illegal drugs and not drank alcohol for over 16 years so umm not doing to bad 

But have been known to smoke a little marijuana maybe once in a blue moon but obviously 🙄 not advisable as psychosis and stuff like that , 

Umm dodo 🦤 lloyd it was like they found an extinct dinosaur 🦕 when I was diagnosed ADHD and dyslexia are lloyd you fell through the net 

Umm obviously talk to parents about it and Freinds and 🤷🤦🏻🤦🏻‍♀️ They say umm I wouldn’t of done the things I have done  and I am what I am kept my Freinds from school and not really made any new ones umm guess kind of not great at trusting people umm loads and loads and loads isn’t there to explore it’s bonkers 😝 it truly is I blurt things out which is it good or is it bad vroom it’s what I feel and vroom 

See vroom if I have blurted somthing out and hurt someone s feelings do I sit around thinking the impossible of what I said was right or wrong ummm 🤔 

Obviously an old fart now and just used to saying what I feel I kind of think black and white I hate back stabbing people like I say it to someone’s face not one of those who goes in the corner and stabs 

Find that horrible back stabbing obviously hated or liked so obviously 🙄 knows a back stabbed from a 100 yards ummm 🧐 o dear o dear o dear folks umm the world of don’t think on the impossible lloyd as it will cook your noodles well I try and try and try not to :-) honestly ummm at least once a day I pull the phase Oy lloyd don’t try and work out the impossible. That’s my tip for you all from my Phyciatrist’s ummm hate it but he probably write ✍️ isn’t he as he top of the range good one ☝️ 🤦🏻🤦🏻‍♀️🤪😜💯🍀🙃🙋‍♂️